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Happy New Year!!!!!!!

( For my sisi )

Oh yes. I have the best friends in the world. Always up to do shit and have a lot of laughter.
We were at Dominik`s house yesterday, in Bad Orb. Thats really somwhat of far away from the shitty hole I live in. Tib and Me drove to Kathy and from there, she drove us with " Pauly trash" <-- thats the name of her car lol to Orb.
That`s the first time ever I have been at Dom`s place. Its a real badass house, one of the coolest I`ve ever seen. Truly cool and everything nice and comfy. We just chilled all together ( Fio, Mareike, Kathy, Tib, Dom, Martin, Sue and Me) had some cool munchies and some real good convos and laughers. I got to meet Dom`s sis, and shes pretty cool too.

Tib and me have a new Insider..

PARIS....YOU SUCK!! lmao. Actually it`s not even that funny, but we couldnt stop laughin our asses off until we had tears in our eyes.
But I think I should first explain this insider: First of all, it has absolutley nothing to do with Paris Hilton lol

It has to do with my Evanescence " anywhere but home" dvd. Its the concert in Paris they played once, and while performing Amy keeps shouting Paris, you rule tonight bla bla to the crowd. And I was like...what would happend If she was like...." Paris.....you suuuuuck" lol. Well thats about it. Then Tib added that I would stay on stage shouting that and ppl from the front row would throw tomatoes at me lol. Yeah...I know actually its not that funny, but still...that was just awesome. I think thats our new fave quote now lol.

Well yeah, had a real good time. We spent the night there, went to bed really late and the next morning, I wake up, go to the bathroom and realize there is a snail under the toilett. Kathy named her Frida. Hehe.
And then Martin was searching for Sue and I was just like..Oh..shes visiting Frida.
And hes like..huh who the hell? lol. Fun Fun. But then somehow Dom put Frida away and I asked him where he put her and he just said.." Into Garden Eden " lol poor Frida....I bet shes spending the rest of her life in the biotrash now.

Then Kathy drove us back home...I slept on some hours..and tonight she kidnapping me again cuz they want to Grill at Fio`s...soo...Ill go to Bad Orb today again.

I feel better........yay :D just hope it will stay that way....still have a headache from time to time..hope that will pass too......

so monday...im going back to school...after 2 weeks that i missed out....

and I'm fit for the operation....I guess....just hope I'm really Okay again..........yep.

It's officially now..: Jenn is an 11 grader^_^ teehe. Yup. I'm in class BG11e..lol. This mornin i was really nervous all the time..and then at school..there was this " get to know game", the teacher threw a lil ball to ppl and then they had to say who they are, where they come from and their hobbies and stuff..and then it was my turn lol and i only said stupid things duuh Jenn lol how embarresing..lol i was so nervous that i didnt even notice that shit coming out of my mouth lol geeeez. I gotta work on myself...i have to get more calm and confidenc and everything will b alot easier ..yep. So my class...its kina cool. I'm really glad. I don't know any of those peeps exapt Lisa who was with me in my old class and now we`re doing it 2gether. But the ppl seem really cool. Actually..it's an chics only class lol...we got 3 guys in the class and thats it lol poor guys...lol yep and the peeps are 16-20 yrs old. One chic is already 20 shes the oldest i guess..the most are 18..then it goes up to 17-16. I think lisa and me are the youngest in class ..yep. And our class teacher...Mr. Kramer..lol he seems cool too. He keeps smiling all the time and everything is funny to him lol he seems like a person that has only sunny days in life..yeah..lol and then..2morrow we're going on this trip and hes like.." Oh i wanted to buy something to drink..so what do u guys wanna drink? *smile smile* and then he goes on.." Okay uhhm...water...coke...ice tea...uhmm...beer?" lol and everybody was like " yessssss" omg lol. I dont like beer...disgusting. I don't really like any alc...cocktails r cool though...like pina colada^_^ hehe. Well yeah..so I'll see how everythin works out. I've already talked to some ppl and i think...the next 3 yrs might get really cool..^_^ since the ppl seem nice...just hope the teachers wont b asses. Yep..I`ll see how everythin works..I'll keep ya posted;-) Now i gotta go and take a shower and get ready for 2morrow..buh bye!! I'm off!! Till Friday!! <3 <3 <3 <3

yup yup..I'll start school 2morrow...HELP. I'm nervous...hope everythin works out okay and stuff...waaaaaaaaaaaaa.

My day today started w/Tina waking me up lol first she sent a message to my cell and i was still in my bed..in my eeyore sleepshirt lol and im like..huh what was that beep?..Oh..my cell lol. Then she called and shes like..im almost infront of ur house...come out I'll wait here and im like...Uhmm...I'm still in my pyjamas ...and shes like...then get dressed duuh lol so i got dressed and went out and there she was. Hehe it was cool..i havent seen her in a while cuz she always has to work and stuff. She had a Volleyball match today and still had some time so we walked a lil around and then went to the match..( it was in a buliding thats round the corner from my house may i add lol) and we watched the some others playin..i wanted to stay and watch Tina playin but i sat on something wet and so my boodie was all wet and eww and waa lol and i got cold and hungry so i went home to eat and change my pants lol. So I'm on my way home...and infront of my house..there is ana and this other chic..(they're doing newspaper delievery and were making a break) so i talked a lil with em...then they noticed my wet bud lol and im like..nooooo i didnt piss off my pants lmao just sat on somethin wet and stuff..ana asked me to come over to her house later to hang out ..i wanted to but somehow that didnt work out anymore. After Lunch my mom kiddnapped me and we went to Somborn( the next viallage) she wanted to go to the ice-cream parlor and buy me a big ass ice cream portion lol so we went there...sit down..and then shes like..DONT ORDER ANYTHING I DONT HAVE MONEY!!! and im like...R U KIDDING? lol THEN LETS GET OUT OF HERE REAL QUICK! and then already this waiter come up to us asking what we're gonna take and Im just like....eh...ehem uhhmm..heheh uhmm...er uhmm...*shit* uuuuuhhmm...we left the money at home....bye byeeeeee" and tried to get mom out of there , since she was still looking in her bag for money...babbling "shit i left it on the microwave"...duuuh lol. EMBARRESING!! yeah so then..we went visiting a friend and her baby. Cute lil baby..awwwww. So now im home and now i got a headache..waaaa.

This might b my last post until Friday cuz I'm leaving Tuesday...so..you better miss me!! lol and leave me some nice comments and wish me luck alright?

later, buh bye <3 <3 <3 <3

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help help help heeeeelp lol. I have to sing at the wedding today..but uhmm...I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO WEAR! *lol* well.. okay then i'll just put on an awesome black outfit..( which i have enough of lol) and just hope peeps wont think im goin to a funeral but to a wedding lol.

School is getting closer...yep i know i already said that. I'm kina looking forward to start school again..cuz my days r getting really lame...i think almost 2months of summer vacation is just way too much. Not that i mind, I mean I loooooooove having vacation , but if you don't have anything to do and keep doing the same shitty things everyday and stuff..you're gonna get tiered of it soon. And to look back..i didn't really do anything that much interesting in my vacation. Well okay..i watched some movies, did some shopping and hung out alot w/ana, i mean i had fun and stuff..but now those last couple days..every day i wake up with the thought" Well Jenn..so what r u gonna do today...?" I'm glad ana is here and we hang out ...every day. Or i prolly would go crazy just killing time in my room..since nobody calls me which i am kina pissed at also. Like..when i was a senior..school was hard and nobody reallly had that much time so i didnt spent that much time w/friends, unless it was sometimes at the weekend or when we studyed 2gether..and now that we have soooo damn much time...not really anybody calls...well okay...Tina has to work alot..Julie and Sue were on vacation...at least Tib or Anne could have gimme some kina sign from em so that i would know they're still alive. Tomorrow there is this wedding from this woman in the choir..so we're gonna sing there..so then i will see anne and tib again..yeah. So..I'm ready for school. And i don't know what I'm going to...just hope it doesnt suck.

So I'm gonna spent the rest of my days w/ana and truly enjoy em...yep yep. It seems like I'm gettin really close w/her..closer then we used to b...seems like its getting a real cool friendship..which is cool. Oh yeah..having a real Goth as a friend truly rocks^_^ teehehe.

The countdown yo...got 3 days left...and then school starts and then all the stress is gonna come back..well well. I hope it doesn't suck...

My dog is still in pain from the operation..last night he was makin me go crazy. He cryed and cryed all night long until like 2am, then i decided I'm gonna let him sleep in my room. That was the first time he slept in my room cuz usually i dont let him go into my room cuz i dont want him to mess everything up cuz he would take everything in his mouth that he sees. He didnt this night. He lay down on my carpet and finally he was quiet and sleeping..then he woke me in the morning..jumped in my bed and licked my face ...ewww lol. Well well..i guess I'll let him sleep there today also...to avoid hes gonna start cryin again ....yep.


So today...i tidyed up my room...hung out a lil w/ana...its actually the same every day...my life has been pretty boring during my vacation...time for some action lol.
Im sooo bored...doesnt anyone want to entertain me eh? lol

I must have something that attracts weird guys. I'm serious..!! Or maybe its just this village lol. Like everytime those men who bulit the streets and stuff..dunno how u call em..street and house buliders..? lol are buliding something here and i would walk by..they will get all crazy ....duuh lol. Just a second ago, right infront of my house those ppl r building a new street or something..and i was just gonna open the door..and they start " Piskat" at me and giving me those weird looks and act all...ewwy lol. I dont like those guys who bulid the streets..they r weird..and actually old..but there must b something on me that attracts em or otherwise they wouldnt act that way..but its soo ewwy..next time that happens..im gonna show em the bad finger hehehe. But its always the same..weird ppl keep starring at me everywhere i go...even chics! I`m gonna start wearing a paper bag over my face..lol...well well.

I got one week left until school starts...I'm a lil nervous bout school...there is still some stuff i have to organize b4 i go there. Like today...this mornin i went to my old school cuz the dump principal forgot to sign my graduating certifikat..i just realized that yesterday and i was like..WTH?? so..yeah..i have to fetch it on wednesday and i need to make a copy of it( my old school is gonna do that also after the principal signed it). I need to bring this certifikat to school on monday..plus my old certifikats where it says i took french..and two pics...wait..didnt i already say that..? hmm....whateva. And yeah..then i need to organize my monthly tickets for the bus to get to school and stuff..Help. My first day is on aug 30th and right the next day, the school is making a 4 day long trip..so i wont b here then. I'm coming back on sept 4th i guess. Oh well..I'm scared..hope everything works out ok.


I now got my Zeraphine CD...ana copyed it for me heheeh. If everything works out I`m gonna go to the concert with her on my bday...yaaay..I'm gonna look if i find some more ppl to go there with us...anyone of you wanna join us? lol I wish i could take u with me sisi and louis..Im sry...well yeah. Maybe i'll ask my bro...Im pretty sure hes gonna say no anyways..lol at least in the end he cant say i didnt ask him...yeah. Hmm...who else could i ask...i guess all my friends exapt ana r not interested in going there..since its a Goth Band. Oh well. I might celebrate my bday one day later w/my friends though..I'll see..it still a long time until October 17th...But i can't wait...I'm gonna b 17!! YAAAY:-) lol..I'm gonna b 17 on October 17th..hehe

OMFG!!!!! Zeraphine are playing in Frankfurt on my bday!!!! Im Freaking out..!!! I GOTTA GO THERE!!!!!!! YAAAAY YAAAAY Zeraphine Rocks! Oh and now i think they r a german band..lol go to www.zeraphine.de choose ur language ( well english lol) go to Multimedia..then Audio..then listen to Be my Rain...Rock on^-^

Zeraphine

...is a cool song. I catched it from anna. Its by an German or Finish..( im not sure) Goth band and the song just rocks lol. Now i wish i could listen to it, but i dont have it..anna does. So yesterday..we went to the sto' cuz i had to buy food...and..just as we wanted to leave it started raining so bad..and all that time b4 i had that song stuck in my head and i was like.." Be my rain....Be my rain..." lol and so as it was pouring...anna was like.." Look what youve done Jenn! With ur stupid be my rain! Thats what we got now!" lol. And im like...sooorrryy..lol. So yeah we were caught in da sto for like 15 minutes or more and she wanted to leave..so i said ok and then we were running in the rain until we found something were we could stay under lol. Came home totally wet. Yeah. It was fun though. So then yesterday..i went to Susans house at 7pm and came back home about 2am lol. My mom was kina upset i came home so late..and she was like..i called u on ur cell but u didnt even have it with you..lol i had..i just turned it off cuz i knew shes gonna call and i kina didnt want her to call me or i prolly would have to go home then,so yeah. We watched a movie..i think it was called Bless the Child. It was cool..really cool. Then talked and stuff..i dont know y it has been so late myself..lol oh yeah..i think it was cuz anne was making up names for susans goldfish..lol and they just couldnt decide..hehe.

watched Queen of the Damned w/anna yesterday ...cool movie..yep. Hang out with her a lil today also..and tonight I'm goin to Susan`s house with Tina and Anne.....to watch movies...yeah..so uhmm..i guess i'll write more when i come back 2morrow...im not sure if the girls r plannin to stay at Sue's..we'll see. I'm off now..don't really got much to write right now.

duuh..i didn't sleep well..no..not good at all. I went to bed like uhmm...10pm..tried to sleep..but all i did was thinkin bout all that stuff bout my friend..so i couldnt sleep. I decided to get off the bed again, and look if my parents r still awake so that i could maybe watch a movie with em..but it was already 11:40pm and they were dead asleep. So..went to the kitchen..drank some milk..went back in my room..and pulled out my book i havent been readin for so long..so i read..and read...its 1am and im sayin to myself.." well Jenn try to sleep now.." so i tried..but again..i couldnt find any rest. My thoughts were not letting off me..they were haunting me and disturbing my sleep...so then..i get off the bed again and its 2am now...i decided i could tidy up my dresser...cuz it was kina messy...so i did that..and so then it was 3am...me..still not tiered..but okay..went back to bed..held on my pillow tied..took my discman and listened to music....after i listened to the whole music..i put the discman back and try to sleep...so then...its like 4am and outside on the grass..i hear some cats fighting..duuh so" meooow meeaaaooow" all the time..and then those sounds were turning into sounds i never heard b4..and it didnt sound like a cat at all! That was kina scary..so i decided I`m gonna close my window...did that..went back to my bed and pulled out my cd again..listened..blaaa. It was like 5am when i started to get a lil tiered but my thoughts were still the same.....well okay i fell asleep like 5:30am...and then this mornin i got waked up by my dog, cuz he has been castrated yesterday and started to cry like a lil baby...prolly had pain. So its like 6:40am and i open my eyes...totally sleeepy..just slept about an hour...got out my bed..pet the dog..but he wouldnt stop cryin...i went back to sleep then and now i just woke up and its 12:13pm...and I'm sleepy...what a crazy night...*yawn*

knowing i prolly lost 2 of my friends hurts ass....One for sure..dont know how it looks with the other one..but i guess...that one too. For sure. It hurts me...especially that i lost that one..and the other one..can just kiss my ass now.It hurts..im gonna cry. .....

I'm so bored...help help help. There is really nothing to do over here...Tina has to work...Anne doesnt give me any sign of life from her..neither does Tib...Nina lives far away...Julie is in Denmark...and Anna isnt at home also..waaaaaa. Nobody is online also so im really bored to death. I tried to sleep a bit, but its hard to try to sleep when ure not tiered. So..what am i supposed to do..? Watched some Tv, but there is only shit on it..listened to music...sit in my room and thinkin bout what i could do...hmm...:-/ Got no inspiration to write another poem or draw a pic...I didn't even get dressed today..I'm still in my pyjamas...and its already 6:40pm..didnt go outside...not even to the stupid sto'..they have the same shit every day anyway...so now..I'm just being bored to death.....

Today..Tina had a day off from work so she finally hung out with me again..it was cool. Then Anna came over also so we were 3 lol but she left like already after an hour..so then Tina and me went to the sto' and then went over to her house and watched 2 episodes of Fushigi Yuugi^__^ YAAY lol. Those were two very sad episodes...waaaa. I hope something happy is gonna come up...yep. There is not much left of Fushigi Yuugi..we're gonna b done with it soon lol. Well besides that..nothing happened..just that i started my red friends today and i am totally in pain but exapt for that..oh and my stupid neighbour is having another party!! I bet those ppl really dont get anythin better to do then just get f*cked up every night lol stupid asses..well as long as their not that loud so i can sleep this night..whateva..but if they're gonna disturb my sleep im gonna kick their asses. Yup. Sure thing lol. So uhmm...now im bored and still in pain..mmh..well maybe there is somethin interestin on the TV......blaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Last night was crazy. I got into a major deep fight with a friend(Lisa)and i think i almost lost her friendship..well..SHE almost lost MY friendship. The shit began with me telling her that I`m turning into a lil rebell..some kina punk..and she totally misunderstood what i was tryin to say..she totally freaked out she was like.." PUNK? R U FUCKIN CRAZY?" and things went on like that..every time i tried explain something..she didnt really let me speak out and made everything that i sad bad. She said some really mean things and i just couldnt belive she acted that way. She was totally dis-respecting the way i felt and my opinions..and i just wanted to tell her that i have become strong..that i dont take shit from others anymore and dont let others put me down anymore and that i..dont do things i dont want to and that i dont give a damn when somebody thinks shit about me. Thats what i meant with "PUNK" cuz Punks...r anarchists..they do what they want. And Rebell..cuz i just wanna live my life the way I want it to and not how others tell me to. My Protest against the world. Yep...thats basiclly what i was tryin to tell her but NOOOO she wouldnt let me. The conversation totally esculated and shit. I was so mad..i was very disapointed. I almost cryed..or did i? whateva. After she left( we were talkin online) i left her a message on ICQ telling her that im totally hurt..cuz she really got soooo rude! I cant belive it. And i told her that i thought i meant something to her and i thought shes my friend...and she was acting like a total bitch to me...and stuff like that. So then today..i go online and i find this message she left me..sayin.." Oh Jenn Im soooo sorry..i didnt meant it that way and of course u mean somethin to me and i didnt want to hurt you and i have no clue whats been going with me, i was just being so stupid im sooooo sorry.." blaaa. And so then later..she comes on and Im`s me..and keeps apologizing..i really could feel she was sorry..so i asked her what was wrong with her and she was like..well those past 2 weeks have been crazy for me and im so sorry and stuff..so then she FINALLY got me a chance, to explain what i meant..and then in the end she totally understand me and shes like.." yeah jenn ur right" well..Im still hurt though..i need some time to get over it..cuz that was just too f*ckin crazy. It was soo f*cking crazy that i was really close to sayin" Fuck you and leave me alone" I just cant believe it. I mean..friends fight sometimes..for sure..but that was just way too much for me. I never had such a stupid fight with anybody else b4.

hehe i got a new icon:-) Louis made that cuz my stupid program wouldnt let me do it lol. Thanks once again Lou:-) Hehe. So yeah my stupid neighbours r having some kina stupid party and they're listening to only stupid shit and sooo loud that i can hear it in my room, on the balkonee..just everywhere! So as a protest...i pumped up my rock music YAAY to show em what real music is and not the shit they listen to...German country shit. Disgusting. Screw that fo eva!!! lol. I cant stand my neighbours so much..the guy used to b in my class..hes one of the asshoules who liked being mean to me. Oh well..thats all gonna come back to him one day^__^ Im just so glad i dont have to see those idiots at school every day from now on^_^ yep yep. Teehe. Mother f*cking loosers. Yeah so..i don't really have anything to say bout today...nothin really happened. Besides that funny thing at the kiosk lol. Mom and me went to this lil building where they only sell things like cigs, newspapers..some candy..and alc. And..there was this guy..and he kept starrin at me...and so i turned around cuz i didnt want him to starre...and so..after my mom got her stuff i turned back and we would leave..and now he would still starre at me..so we wanna leave and then he says..." Ur friend has beautiful hair" and im like...uhmm...thx. Lmao. And i thought.." Im her daughter u jerk but ok" lol. That was some funny ass shit. I couldnt stop laughin ...the guy truly thought my mom is a friend of me and not my mom lol. But besides that...it was a normal day like every other. Same shit- different day


Yeah! F*CKIN RIGHT!!!